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Saturday, June 27, 2009
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
Goals
I've had a solid few weeks to myself since college graduation to really sit and think about life. I have a love/hate relationship with thinking. Sometimes I have too much time to think, and my thoughts seem to have a negative tone. When I have too much time to think, I worry and doubt myself more than I normally would. However, this chunk of forced thinking time has unraveled a bunch of thoughts I was actively avoiding and now they stare snobbishly into my soul!
I think it's a good thing. One way or another, we face our problems. And if we don't, they have a wonderful way to sneak back into our minds. Throughout the course of the last year, I've had certain thoughts/ideas/worries creep back into my mind and settle into my brain searching for a more permanent residence.
The thoughts I have most always relate to my future, my romantic/love life, and my goals. Since I know most of my plans for the summer and beyond, and I'm not actively seeking a love/romantic relationship (rather, right now, I'm openly embracing all forms of love- and am unbelievably grateful and excited for the love I've been given by my friends and family in the last few weeks), I want to focus on my goals.
I don't think my goals are very out of reach. I think that I'm the one who always stops myself before I achieve them. Right now, my biggest goal is to start a journal. That I write in. Every day. I've always been the girl who writes every five months in her journals, whenever something wonderfully amazing or tragic happens in her life. But I want to write every day, and I want to write and express myself so that I don't end up bottling my emotions up (like usual) and explode in an irrational way. Also, I have a huge fear that when I'm 50 I'll forget about the beautiful memories of my twenties, and I want to be able to record what goes on in my world. Mostly I'm doing this for my health, and to show myself that I care about my well being. I want to give myself the opportunity to just write, and it might be nice to look back after a year's worth of entries to see if there are any themes and to see where I am.
I think that's it for now. :)
I think it's a good thing. One way or another, we face our problems. And if we don't, they have a wonderful way to sneak back into our minds. Throughout the course of the last year, I've had certain thoughts/ideas/worries creep back into my mind and settle into my brain searching for a more permanent residence.
The thoughts I have most always relate to my future, my romantic/love life, and my goals. Since I know most of my plans for the summer and beyond, and I'm not actively seeking a love/romantic relationship (rather, right now, I'm openly embracing all forms of love- and am unbelievably grateful and excited for the love I've been given by my friends and family in the last few weeks), I want to focus on my goals.
I don't think my goals are very out of reach. I think that I'm the one who always stops myself before I achieve them. Right now, my biggest goal is to start a journal. That I write in. Every day. I've always been the girl who writes every five months in her journals, whenever something wonderfully amazing or tragic happens in her life. But I want to write every day, and I want to write and express myself so that I don't end up bottling my emotions up (like usual) and explode in an irrational way. Also, I have a huge fear that when I'm 50 I'll forget about the beautiful memories of my twenties, and I want to be able to record what goes on in my world. Mostly I'm doing this for my health, and to show myself that I care about my well being. I want to give myself the opportunity to just write, and it might be nice to look back after a year's worth of entries to see if there are any themes and to see where I am.
I think that's it for now. :)
Saturday, June 13, 2009
Love
I know at times movies can be unrealistic, but at least "The Notebook" was beautifully written by someone who believes in some form of LOVE.
"My Dearest Allie. I couldn't sleep last night because I know that it's over between us. I'm not bitter anymore, because I know that what we had was real. And if in some distant place in the future we see each other in our new lives, I'll smile at you with joy and remember how we spent the summer beneath the trees, learning from each other and growing in love. The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more, that plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds, and that's what you've given me. That's what I hope to give to you forever. I love you. I'll be seeing you. Noah" - "The Notebook"
I'm so excited to have a kind of love that awakens the soul- I can't wait. :)
"My Dearest Allie. I couldn't sleep last night because I know that it's over between us. I'm not bitter anymore, because I know that what we had was real. And if in some distant place in the future we see each other in our new lives, I'll smile at you with joy and remember how we spent the summer beneath the trees, learning from each other and growing in love. The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more, that plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds, and that's what you've given me. That's what I hope to give to you forever. I love you. I'll be seeing you. Noah" - "The Notebook"
I'm so excited to have a kind of love that awakens the soul- I can't wait. :)
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